Note to self: this thought might not be as coherent as it was before. However, coincidentally, (or maybe it's not so coincidental, maybe something up there is fixing this up for me, or maybe i've getting messages all along and have just been oblivious)
Anyway, for the last few days, I keep getting pestered. First, from my dearest younger brother, who keeps asking me what dreams or talents are. When he found out that I just had my career dream for 8 years basically crushed and that I now have to look into another direction and start from scratch...well, I told him, "It's back to the drawing board for me." (well--to be fair, it was not that recent), he said, "well, do you mind telling me what's on your drawing board?" Well, yes, I do mind. Why do I mind, bc the same stuff is on the drawing board. Maybe I'll take up pschology, or maybe I'll take up nursing, or maybe...etc., etc.,
THEN...a couple days later, (well, basically today), I had a guy come in and asked me where I go to school. I told him I'm done with school and thinking about whether or not I should go back. I told him I hesitate to just jump in bc I don't want to randomly pick something impulsively (well, I didn't say "randomly" or "impulsively," but that's what I was thinking) only to find that I can't or won't make a career out of it and just end up going back to waiting tables to pay off my loans (of course, it would be really worth it if I had a huge passion for a subject like Sim does for English and Medievel History, but the reality, is, I don't have one, not really). He responded that I should just jump in bc that's what he did, apparently he jumped into culinary school and was able to pay off the %52,000 in a year (bear in mind, this is the same guy who told me he also works weekends and that today was his first day off in 6 months O_O to which I responded he shouldn't work himself into an early grave and his comeback to that was that he had already outlived both of his parents--and he's only 29--and I know this bc he showed his ID to serve him sake--he voluntarily showed it---I didn't bother asking bc the guy already has really deep wrinkles! THAT'S how hard this guy works himself!!! Do not want to be him!) He said I should just go into whatever my talents are or do I just want to sweep floors for the rest of my life? (I was sweeping as I was talking to him).
To be fair, I think I will be waiting tables off and on in life to help with making some residual income. But yeah, as frustrated as I am with the audacity of my brother and this random guy to just butt in my life, he's got a point, I don't want that to be my only skillset. And if I want an actual professional career, I should try picking it up when I'm young and have tons of energy.
So what's on my drawing board? I think I shall have to make that a separate post!
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